Fuck. Why is this happening right now. Why am i starting to go head over heals for you? Why do you have to be so sweet and charming. Your smile makes me melt like a Popsicle on the fourth of July. I love it, your smile wipes my mind and leaves it a clean slate from all the problems and stress. Ive never actually had conversations like the ones we do with anyone else. You ask about my day and care about my safety. In the mitts of all this, i feel like a geeky fifth grader admiring and thinking about her “crush” all day. I cant help it. Your planning for your future and your hopes and dreams are what make me even more attracted to you. Your love for your family and your want for adventure. At the end of the day you make me want to be an even better person and live out my dreams.
I understand you want to move on. But by you doing things this way, your moving on from your true family. I dont even think you care anymore. Why? you choose her and her daughters over your own two. You go out of your way for her, but not for us. You buy her new clothes, take her out to eat all the time, and give her presents all the time. You eat dinner with us, but you might as well not be there. Your super glued to your laptop and phone. I just dont know how much longer i can do this. Luckily i get my license soon so i can just get away and out of your way.
you were supposed to be there no matter what. through think and thin… through better or for worse. you were my partner in crime. now im loosing you to someone i once loved. how does this happen? have i really been this horrible person to deserve something like this, its legit one thing right after the other. you dont see it. maybe im over reacting. but other inputs say im not. i feel like both of you are slowing cutting away at my heart and eventually going to set it on fire.
